even if what happened, 

i'll always be grateful to you as you lifted me up &switched z button of passion inside me

7 A's for healing

Acceptance

Accept your self as it is, don't over blame your self

Awareness

Of emotional perceision and of symptoms that indicate u need help

Anger

Express anger is healthier yhan repression of it

تدوم الضحكة الحلوة

 

حبيباتي القلابيظ

يسعد صباحكم

تعيشوا وتنوروا والورد يفتح على ايديكم

There is always cure

*Touching roses is a perfect analgesic for soul pain*

Decided to walk again & again

This morning positive thoughts came to help.. Even if soul didn't like or can't amuse to higher level but mind controls would fix alot of things

Walking bring thoughts.. Calm down inside fire to some extent.. Walking in straight ways has some sort of meditation effect.. I can feel it

While i was walking it was brought here.. A roadmap appeared to my RAM .. May be all these huge waves.. Ups and downs.. Which have shaked me from z deepest points inside, were a gift from allah to reallocate my resources.. To reroute power to another way

May be it was just power release & i couldn't catch it

Iam gonna test a postponed plan..not fully excited but there was a kept dream which i had all my passed life.. To keep quran in my heart& thoughts

i'd prayed alot to make it come true

Let's begin again

here is z plan, z powerful tool of walk with my dear handfree set

I know you failed alot of times.. But z goal deserves 2 get up again

After arriving work it was z case

A red flower came to life while z purple one was down
there will always be a flower there
iam sure i will overcome all this

Don't like the victim shape, fighter is mine

Deep in

It seems like we are not on z same wave

Here i can assess what is z shape of my heart, 

I have reached mature level of heart touch

For you, it'sn't z same case

Can't imagine it sounds alot for me, i have called this teenages sense, or even childs shape of love

It 'd started with davi, paula, Neveen, ola, shereen, eman, eman... Then it had stopped

Every time it was full of pain and tears beside those amazing charmy moments while in harmony

After all that time, to be awaken again, its so hard to be even imagined not lived

Touching souls can't stand distances, lies, representing its ok while it'sn't like that

Only truth is accepted even if it'sn't z best

Only truth can make sense even if it's on silence

Eye looks can tell every thing, but words are z accepted tool to make sure

Iam awaken again, at midnight, due to discomfort

Can't imagine z roadmap but my heart tells it is gonna have alot of struggles

This shape of my heart is n't my fault, isn't my request, isn't my making

It's a struggle i'd felt in

Don't have alot of choices but gonna keep it for a while till iam sure it deserves to you or it should be burried beside other passed touches

I always can keep my friends but i couldn't ever keep my soulmates

باسمك نحيا

 باسمك نحيا ربنا

والحبيب امامنا

باسمك نحيا دنيا وديييين

نصير رحمة في العالمين

باسمك خالق أوجدتنا

باسمك رازق وأغنيتنا

باسمك واسمك ربنا في الحياة دليلنا

باسمك علييييم بحااالنا

باسمك رحيييييم بضعفنا

الاصعب على الاطلاق

التعلق بالاشياء.. بالأشخاص..بالاماكن.. بلحن عبر عن حالة بداخلك.. بالاكل حتى الامتلاء

حالة الادمان التي تصاحبك حين تشتم رائحة راحة تنبعث من احدى زوايا الحياة

تذهب اليها مرارا وتكرارا

تتعودها.. تستمتع بها.. تشعرك بالراحة كثيرا.. تقرر بداخلك ان هذا سكنك

حين تحاول الابتعاد قليلا

ينقلب عليك الامر

تعاني اعراض انسحاب تكاد تزهق روحك

تزداد سوءا كلما ذكرت نفسك بالاعتدال

ومزاياه وكل ما يتبعه من بتاع

من اصعب ما عشت ومن اكثر ما استهلكني

التعلق.. ففي التعلق ادمان